I don’t know about any of you really…all I know is what I’ve experienced myself. I can have sympathy for other peoples plights…but until I’ve experienced it myself, I can’t be completely empathetic. That is something that comes with experiencing the same feelings….the same moments in time that change our outlooks, change who we are.
Today I had some time to think….about what is coming up for me. A few posts ago, I mentioned a bit about my future plans. While I understand some people’s resistance to my idea…I just can’t think of another way to free myself from my own downfall….my debt.
I don’t pass the blame onto anyone else for the situation I find myself in….I chose to spend each of those dollars, on myself or others….and I have to accept the consequences. I am teetering on the brink of not having enough money to live, when I have the best paying job I’ve ever had. Why? Because I was the party girl for way too long.
So, now I am going to try to fix it. Tonight I write my 2 months notice for my apartment…and I start packing as soon as possible. My friend Peggy has agreed that I can live with her for the summer, rent free. Because of her situation, that’s all I think we could get away with….after that, I am going to live in the hospital or my car. I have a PT Cruiser, so I can take the back seats out and store them with all my stuff at Peggy’s. A blow up mattress will fit in the back, and I believe I’ve thought of everything. I have changed my address to my mom’s house for anything really important…and I have changed my billing on most things to electronic, so I should get them in my e-mail. I have a budget in excel that I will follow every month.
If I stay at the hospital, there are showers at the gym, a fridge and three bathrooms within about 20 feet of my office. There is also a cafeteria and my office has a phone and the internet.
If I stay in the car, I have access to the showers at work, I will try the raw vegan food diet again, and that will simplify food storage (I have access to a fridge at work). I have my blackberry, and my laptop that I can use at free Wifi sites around the city. I must say, I do want to try this and give it my best shot. I feel very safe in my city….and will give the idea up if I feel unsafe at any time. If I can do this for 8 months, I will have paid off all my credit cards, and be debt free (including my car paid off!)
Work can be fairly casual, so I may not have to iron my clothes if I get them out of the dryer before they wrinkle, and fold them. My windows are tinted in the rear of the car. Am I overlooking anything?
Yes, I want to blog about the whole experience too…I think it may be interesting….